I realized yesterday that I am crazy.
You'd think I knew that already. But it was an epiphany. I am crazy. I have issues. I am not a perfect human being. There are things about me that I need to fix.
So here's the plan. I am going to fix myself. Because, although I am more than happy to recognize the importance of defects and quirks in every human being, there are a couple of quirks I have that are messing my life up and hurting people I really love. And I'm not proud of that.
A conversation I had with my Dad in the car yesterday was centered around the idea of change. How much can we change ourselves? Is it actually beneficial to change for another person? Are you required to keep loving someone if they change beyond the scope of your original love? I came to the conclusion that as long as the motivation behind personal change is to keep hold of something more important to you than yourself, the change is well worth it.
And love is always well worth it. So fix myself I shall.
Dear Danie,
ReplyDeleteI love you. Also, every time I read your blog it makes me miss you more. Mind if I hitchhike over to England and stay with you for awhile? :)
P.S. As long as you don't lose sight of why you started the changes, or the fact that everyone is imperfect, I say go for it. Change is almost always a good thing.