I don't know what it is with me and hyperventilating these days, but I'm doing it again. It's Facebook's fault. I read all about your lives and miss you too much. I start feeling unnecessary. I feel forgotten.
The only thing I fear in life is being forgotten--especially by the people I love most. To be forgotten by the very beings that my every thought revolves around is a terrifying situation.
You are the ones I love. My thoughts are on you. Constantly. I am not asking for your every attention, just a deliberate thought now and again.
Danie!!! We're thinking about you!!! Hopefully you'll get my birthday card soon and realize that!!!! You're unforgettable!!!
ReplyDeleteThis is a different perspective but I hope it helps you. I've felt this way a lot this summer because I work long hours every day and just don't have the time for anything else. I was talking out of the blue to an old friend the other day and she was saying that she felt that same loneliness as the people around her got more busy with their own lives. The point that I'm trying to make is that everyone feels this type of loneliness and the fear of being forgotten. The problem is that the natural tendency when faced with this is to close yourself off and wait for someone else to reach out to you so you can prove to yourself that you're not forgotten. When I first moved to Utah, my dad always told me that YOU have to be the one to put yourself out there when associating with people because most people don't take initiative in interacting with people. And as life goes on and people get more busy, I've found that this advice still holds true. Sometimes the best thing you can do when you feel lonely is gather up all your courage, shelve all your pride, and be the bigger person in your friendships.
ReplyDeleteI hope you found something helpful in this really long and probably useless comment. But I hope you know that you're not forgotten and that you still have people rooting for you! Best of luck!
-Caylin
Great advice, Caylin!
DeleteAnd I'm with Brooke, Danie. I haven't forgotten you! I think of you often and when I was visiting with Hannah and your mom at girls camp last week, they are thinking of you too! (of course) Lots of love coming your way!
with love,
Lisa (or Sister Collier or whatever name you want to refer to me as. Even at my age, it is hard for me to refer to one of my mom's friends as Pat because she was always Sister Cluff growing up. :)
Oh, one more thought...okay, several thoughts. :) Did you ever look into giving piano lessons? Maybe you could even give some for free to get to know people and as a service. Have you gone to the branch or ward there? I'll bet there are activities that they do that would be fun. I know that whenever I have moved anywhere, it takes me a while to fit in, but I have found lifelong friends as I go to my church activities. I feel at home and loved, but it takes time. I think you should also try writing. You are very talented. Maybe you could start with a short story and try entering it in a contest.
Just random thoughts to add to your random musings.